frozen strawberries FTW!!!

what the hell!

holy frig man today i was so out of it i swear i prolly tripped over myself like 234654 times and while i was cooking today for school i screwed up SOOO Many times it was ridikalous LOL i dunno im hoping that 2moro ill b in better shape LOL. and 2moro im going on this boat cruise thing for my school and im hoping its good cuz ill most likely be going by myself so HOPEFULLY ill be in an outgoing mood or else im gonna be totally bummed out and lonely and ill feel like a loser and shit and that wont be very fun will it? LOL

people often confuse infactuation with love. people think because they cant stop thinking about the person and cant so jealous and shit that they think its love. and people think that love is all that corney shit like, "i cant stop tihnking about you" or "your all i need". NO. love isnt any of that shit. of course you need that person like crazy but there will be other people that you need, like family or other very close friends. theres also other types of love. the one that im mainly talking about is the one you have for ONE person. i dont believe that u can love more then one person, at a time at least, thats just wrong. but theres love that you have for family, theres love that u have for your closest friends and theres love for matieral things or things that you do. im talking about the love you have for 1 person because thats the one that people get confused with because people are made to believe that love is something that it isnt. or sometimes they just get confused and start to think that thats what it is. but to be real with u this is just what i feel it is, without the filters of social standards and media in the way. it took me alot of thinking to come up with that conclusion. and taken me a longer time to adjust to what it really is. even though i havent personally felt something that ideal i know what it is and i pray that i can find it. and even though not many people may think that love is what i tihnk it is, in the end its what YOU tihnk it is and what YOU feel it must be.

love..........

love....
what is its true definition?

is it the text book definition?
"a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person."

no

is it physical attraction?

no

is it when your obsessed with something or someone?

no

is it when you cant your mind off that someone for one single moment?

no

love......

love is.....

love is complicated but the feeling is so simple

love is sometimes harder to find then the greatest treasure but we all search for it

love is something that you never see coming but you can see it when its there

love is when you cant stand to be apart but you give them their space

love is when your brought to your peak of happiness but the next it could bring you to your lowest

love is what you find out of the blue and not in places where you think it would be

love is what you feel, it's not what people sing in a song, it's not what you think it would be sometimes but when it hits you like a brick wall, you know because it's gonna be something like you've never felt before or ever will again....

random thoughts

im just chillin in my bed listening to music and all i could think about was how boring my life has been! like wtf. the first thing that comes to my mind when i think about my high skool life was how boring it was. i NEVER went out, well hardly. and even during the summers id go out like maybe 10 times the enitre summer or sumtimes even less. and i have pretty much nothing to show for my high school life. i never went to parties or anything, i never really had anything super interesting happen to me. like theres little things here and there but its mostly empty LOL. and i kinda stress about my college life cuz its HALF the time of high school and during the first week of school, which is frosh week, ive done NOTHING!!! ive only gone to class and came back home. and then i c all these other ppl out partying and having a good time and living their lives and all i can think is, why cant i do that? like i aint trying to say that im a party animal or sumthing and i wanna go out and get drunk and shit, that aint me but man i like to party! who doesnt right? ive hardly ever partied! i feel as if i havent lived my life as a teenager and yo ima be 20 years old when im done school. thats pushing old to me. LOL and with my profession it requiers a shit load of my time so ill hardly ever have time for partying or anytyhing so fuck i wanna live my life while i can! i feel like i wanna go back in time and start alll over and take advantage of my youth. youth only lasts so long and i dont wanna act and be older then i actually am. i wanna be a teenager for once and not some1 that goes and gets what they HAVE TO get done, done and call it a day. i dont want that, at least not yet im not ready to leave behind my social life, NOT EVEN CLOSE! so i wanna get out there andd party, make friends, and all that shit. i just wanna do things that ppl my age do. i dont wanna be doing things that ppl that are 50 years old do. I WANNA BE MY AGE!!!

my life aint interesting LMAO

well 2day i didnt really doing anytihng i went downtown and just kinda chilled after i went to class. but 2day when i was walking with a few of my friends i saw a mitsubishi lancer evolution 8 that was all modded up driving along toward importfest and all of a sudden i started jumping up and down and yelling and shit and pratically getting a boner off of it and no1 else was freaking out with me LMAO i felt kinda like a loser but i dont care i FRIGGIN LOVED THAT DAM CAR LMAO. meh im not interesting i guess LMAO AAAANNNYYYWWAAAYYSSS ya i think thats it anyways LMAO bye LOL

so many ppl yet no1 to talk 2

i gotta talk about sumthin that kinda bothers me. on msn an all that, ive got alot of ppl, well not alot but like a good amount, and i usually never talk to many of them. like theres ppl that i want to talk 2 but it always feels like they never wanna talk back to me. like do i smell bad over msn or sumthin? LOL its always kinda bothered me and i just wanted to talk about it a little bit. and i know that like u cant talk to every1, every minute of everyday, that just isnt practical and watever but yo say hi now and then and show me that ur still alive or sumtihn LOL. and once in a while id like to not be the one to start the conversation LOL.